Blogging!

I miss blogging! Hope I could find time to blog about what's been happening about with me. 

I'm always online on my Tumblr Account because of the Meet Up that we're arranging on November. Though, I've only been reblogging and answering question about it. I don't 'blog' like take in all what I feel there because its not a safe place to name drop anymore.

Anyways, I hope I could update tomorrow morning.

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High Street

We did this shoot around Septermber 2011 for our project in Oral Communication. Me and my classmate Grem were the ones taking the photos. Though mainly, I was the one taking the pictures. I also did the editing the layout of our magazine and everything else. Though, when it came to editing our pictures, I prefer not to edit any but only add water marks. Just to prove that I own it and I was the one who took it. 

On editing, I wanted the pictures look natural and original so that's why when I edit it I only fix the brightness and contrast to add more color. On the other hand, the photos I uploaded here were no edits done. This shoot was done in Bonifacio High Street, The Fort, Taguig City. 

We didn't exactly had a theme about our magazine because I only told them that they could bring in the clothes they wanted to wear and where they're comfortable at. All pictures turned out alright and when we showed it to our classmates they were all like, "Wow!" "Who did the shoot?" I know this is going to sound a little crazy but really I'm not an arts student but a business. I wanted to be in "art" courses before because I have this passions for it that I just can't explain right.

Well, it turned out to be a great day anyway because I didn't rain that much and all photos look somewhat professional.  By the way, please do visit http://bcphotography2011.weebly.com/ to check for more pictures of what me and grem have been doing for the past life time. We've only been class mates for almost 2 years. Haha. Anyway, that's it and I'll be expecting you guys to check it out! We are looking for models for our test shoot, an unpaid shoot, that we're going to post in the site. Then maybe when were ready, we're going to do some paid ones.

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A Cinderella Story

Hilary Duff's A Cinderella Story is my most favorite movie for ever. Not only that I am a fan of hers since Lizzie McGuire, collected her first three albums and posted a poster of her in my room when we still live in a bungalow.

That movie makes me realize that though reality exist its not so bad that you think of your own fairy tale for a change. That its not so bad to dream of something big for yourself. Hid your thoughts and feelings in almost half of your existence like you're literally inside a box. Though that box is small, it could still fit all the nicest treasures you've kept for a long while.

In my case, my life is far from that and also my love life.
Nahhhh, I always get so awwed by this movie. Its impact to me is just extraordinary. Someday, I'm going to get my own Austin Ames. Someone who thinks of every person as not really themselves. The one who's still ready to accept you even if your family is not so... balanced.

But.. there.


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I don't know what to do anymore.

Maybe this is going to sound a bit crazy because, I've fallen for two guys whom I don't know for each of them if they love me back. Guy 1 is sweet and really showie with his feelings towards me. I've been telling my friends about what's happening with us and if there's any improvement between our relationship. And I can't believe that, they're really saying is that there is really something going on between us. Though, I still doubt that.

Then there's Guy 2 whom is almost like Guy 1 in such way that he's also sweet to me though he often talks to me and that gets me sad. Really. Guy 2's Dad is my Dad's best friend and I can't help but wonder what if that we really became real. I mean, in a relationship. I just can't imagine meeting up with his Dad because I'm close with his Dad too. Though... I've only really known him for a month and that is still not enough for me to really love him. We've already meet for a couple of time because of my best friend whom was they were class mates during high school.

On the other hand, Guy 1, I haven't any of his friends, nor meet his parents. I think that he doesn't have the guts. Just maybe and I've meet him only just once but I've already known him for almost a year. We keep tabs with each other through Facebook and texting. RF: We always text other.

Ehhh, I guess that's it?


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Post~

Haven't made a blog in a while. Will post something later!
Me and my block mate are doing a collaboration project!

Tumblr meeting yesterday at Alabang Town Center! 10/1/11

(L-R) Nicole, Gyno, Jaie, Meia, Jam, Miggy, Me, Ate Jennivie, Ced and Arthur.

Yayyy!! Tama lahat!

This was the Meeting for the #tumu2011 Meet up on Nov5 @ ATC.

This is the only place left for me to brag about what's inside my head.

I need to get a real diary with a cute small lock in it if this thing spreads quickly.

I don't know why and how but ever since the last time I made a huge mistake in front of my classmates is whatever I'm doing in every minute matters to them. Even in what I blog about. Just minutes ago, my classmate posted something in our Facebook group and said something about me, reacting badly about what she said a long time ago for someone too. (Confused? So am I) - that's why I don't normally post what my thoughts for everything on Tumblr because on that too they keep track of me- I'm not famous nor trying to be one. But them being like that to me is worse than them being a Paparazzi. Personally, what they tell me right now simply don't matter to me any more. I know I can't really express what I feel when you're already going to talk to me in person but I think that this my last chance already to tell what I really feel. I don't mean to brag it out here and let the whole world know my problem and comfort me. No. If even my own friends don't care then that's okay with me but as long as they're still going to be there If I break down or something.  

I've been feeling alone, sad and literally can't breathe because of the things that I have been experiencing for the past week. I don't even have the guts to tell them that "Can't you just back off and give me some time to breathe?!" I have just been controlling and telling myself to not cry because it's a sign of weakness. Right? So, that's why I cry when I shower. Sometimes. It's easier and less controversial. 

I don't know what else to do anymore. I need my best friends. I need to talk to them and tell them all this. I just can't hide my thoughts like this anymore.